Going Back a Few Years Ago...
I moved to Nebraska, from New Mexico (I was sent to live with my aunt there at 16), at 17. I came here knowing only the person I came here with. We lived at his mom's house for about a month, and i met and befriended a group of people that (most of them) are still my friends today. Even though we are all scattered everywhere now.... funny how time does that. They had questions about why I was here and some asked about my Cerebral Palsy and a few made fun of it at first. However, in the end my disability has never really been a big issue to those who are my friends here.
The day I moved here I met my now soon-to-be ex husband. He was my best friend right from the beginning. We spent a lot of time together and texted each other all the time. When the man I came here with took me up to a smaller town, he ended up leaving me there after a few days with a man (who is now an awesome dude and has a baby on the way! Congrats Moose!) that I had only known for less then a week. I told my now soon to be ex what happened and he and his roommates came to get me and I moved in with him. Things were great for a while. We moved up to Lincoln, to get a fresh start and became roommates with another of our friends, and this is when I became pregnant with our son Ronnie.
I honestly didn't know anyone with CP who had kids so I was very scared, but throughout the pregnancy, my ex was there and mad sure I made it to all of my doctor's appointments. I knew from the beginning that I was going to have to have a cesarean section due my pelvis being so tiny and my disability.
Ronnie was born May 9, 2008 8lbs 2 1/2 oz. Healthy as can be!
During my pregnancy with Ronnie I had started watching modeling shows, and I always loved taking pictures. However, I never wanted to be your "mainstream" model. 1. Because that's not my style. Ive always been more of an alternative/rocker type. 2. Is a given... I cant walk in high heels! I always said though someday I would model.... Never knew how to do it though.
My ex and I got married on October 10th, 2009, and ever since then our relationship went down hill. I wasn't "putting out" enough. He was staying out till all hours, losing jobs, becoming very easily angered, lying, just a big jumbled mess. Until Christmas Eve of 09 he pushed me into our fridge out of anger and stress. In front of my now best friend. I should have left then. Had I known what a whirlwind of a storm was coming next.
More to come later.
xoxox
Cara
